So I'm writing here. Aiyoo... life is indeed a bore. What can I say? 私？私わReyです。でも．．．何？わかるよ、でもExpressほんとほんとほんと"boring"ですね！はい！そうですね。。。。。ばかばかばか！！！！！！AAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I totally suck at my Japanese. T_T How am I supposed to go Japan? Anyway, helloooo Lika-san.. can you help me buy a yukata if you are going to Japan this year? Ha ha.
Well, I really don't know what to say. MM.... Well, got to go. Hope you update too! JUST SAY SOMETHING!
Omedeto gozaimasu. To myself. I'm going on a Express train! AAAHH!!! My dreams! It has come true! FINALLY! I am SO happy. However, it is NOT confirmed. The staff of the school is going through a meeting of who will go to Express, and they will discuss and discuss. Man, it is so stressful. But all I did when I wasa supposedly supposed to study, I was singing and dancing on the bed to the rhythm of the songs I hear in the BIG stereo I installed in my room. I did nothing then. You mean I ate mashed potato, and waffles, and yohurt, and some chocolates and a cup of milk ALL IN ONE GO before I studied. Or you mean I only studied for 3-4 hours and then the other 5 hours I went to my songs?
WELL WELL WELL just let us THANK GOD, my Father. And Jesus Christ too. Buddha? Mmm.. Not him. I never ask anything from him, only for God. God has fulfill my wish. I LOVE YOU, GOD! Anyway, got to go! Do the History assignment and hand it up tomorrow. Aiyo, so stressful. Choir is so tiring too. Got to dance here and there. And also we have to perform for the Deepavali's thingy on Friday. AND WE HAVEN'T PRACTISED!!! Heck..
Well, I got to get rid of the stalker that keeps following me. MAN! Life is so scary.. Is my purpose of life to let the stalker like me> ~diao. NO WAY! He's way ugly.. ANYWAY, got to go. BYE
Yunho: You Know, jeorde jeormyeong, geudedeul eui nonjeng en nonriga obseo nugudo, dudji mothanmyeon, yeorji mothanmyeon, jeorde hedabeul chajeul su obseo
YooChun: nan gaya dwe, gayadwe naui ban ee jeong baro jeong barojabeul ddeggaji jeong ban hab eui noryeoki eonjenga ee ddang eh, ggumeul piwo nelggeoya
Junsu: jageun ggumira hedo modu gateun goteul barabondamyeon,
It is good. GOOD GOOD. *pats Rika's head* VERY GOOD. At least you realised something. But you haven't entirely woke up. I woke up already, while others are in neverland and I wonder when they are coming out. Because that's why I have no friends now. Not really. I still got those who already woken up. But people like Cherminn or Luvenne or people like that (waking up doesn't only concerns steads..) , they haven't woke up. You have your eyes half-open only, Rika. HAHAHA, get it?
Today I was changing everything, and I realised I didn't read all the entries you made. YOU, TRANSFER SCHOOL? Well, good thing. But are you able to? Because I want to. Even I know I have friends that I can't bear to leave, I LOVE THEM ALL!!! But I can't stand this school anyway. So I have decided to transfer too. Friends like Syahirah, Zi Qun, Esther are my VERY BOSOM FRIENDS I have here that I can't bear to leave. There was others too, but they are a rank lower. You ask me, Cherminn or Luvenne? I tell you they haven't woke up, so who cares?
I am so happy. Anyway I feel great. IT IS GOING TO END!!! THE STUPID EXAM IS ENDING!!! YAY!! MINNA, OMEDETO GOZAIMASU! Just tomorrow. I will be ever so happy. And also Thursday. Because it is Marking Day. THANK GOD! AAAHH!!! XOXOXO!! Well, then I can go back to studying Japanese and Korean all by myself. And I feel so I didn't watch Princess Hours yesterday. Baka! Demo... I just can't stop smiling. Are you happy anyway? I guess you are too! It is great to be free. FINALLY FREE!!!
Anyway, you like my song from the previous entry? Do you like the background now? HAHAHAHA!!! Now got new song at the Side Section. Not really new. But it is the song I asked you to hear. So GO AHEAD!!! O.K? Got to go now! Good luck for your D&T exam tomorrow. Your bright smiles will come later, okay? Same goes to me. But you must update after you see the other entry below. GOOD LUCK!!
Don't get your eyes explode so soon, Alyssa (you can try the Vision Break!)
(P.S: Your colour font must be the Grey colour which is the third colour from the bottom at the left..)
Hey, if no body is going to read this, I post it here then. Because I feel that I have to write it down or you mean type it down so that I will feel better in a way. But I don't think it will work, but I still have to share with somebody, which is YOU the person reading. Ha ha, Rika lah then what? Well, I just have to say something. Because I am know no one will read this. They won't want to. Or you mean Rika read it. She reads this. So I put it here then: (by the way, don't blame me if your eyes explode!!)
I may look like a happy and cheerful person, look twice this time. Are you sure I am REALLY full of joy deep inside? Actually, yeah because I LOVE JIRO, and Changmin, SARANG HAEYO!!! OKay, back to the story, I am also feeling unhappy too. Not only unhappy, but frightenened. And happy of course, because I am falling in love with Kame - his song Kizuna, NOT HIM!! Let's start then:
Syahirah started hanging out with Syazwani and the others. I know I should let her go, because she should make more friends and not always stick to me. Because it can be just boring. I know that. And I remember right after the Science exam that she knew that I cried after the papers were handed in. But she didn't know the real reason. I cried, not because I cannot do the paper properly. Actually the truth is I didn't do the paper properly. Because right before the exam, my teacher Miss Lee searched for us for our donation card that had been dued weeks ago. But my card (maybe that's was my card) was with Syahirah, so I told Miss Lee, "My card is with syahirah. But we don't know if it is really my card.." And Miss Lee scolded Syahirah for taking my card. And she was angry with me. And you know, I can't bear to make my friend angry, especially when it is Claire, Clara or Rika, and Syahirah, those people I won't dare to make them angry. If I do, I will feel very sad inside. Very sad. Until I break down.
So that is the answer. I couldn't do the paper. Because I was worrying. Worrying that syahirah wouldn't be my friend anymore. That's the reason. I may be stupid to ask whether she REALLY hate me now. Because yesterday someone put rubbish in my bag, MY WHOLE BAG, even in my precious Jiro file, and I was so furious that I just threw it on the ground and kicked it to who I think it is the culprit. And Yi Jin said, "You think I cannot see izzit? You better throw it in the dustbin..." And they were thinking that I cannot understand Chinese and think that I am stupid, of course I was furious and ignored them. And when they shouted my name, I ignored them again. And Syahirah was saying, "She act one lah.." I was hurt. So hurt. I wanted to cry. I even crying now. I was like thinking," Why Syahirah? Why do this? You know I am actually acting, yes, but you can't say that. The way you said that, it is so hurtful that my heart would break. All because you are my bosom friend, saying this will just make me sad."
So my eyes are burning now. Burning in front of the computer screen. With water droplets down to my cheeks. My face is heavy. Okay, back to business, and Ri Choon added, "No wonder Syahirah hates Ruihua." And I was like, "Is that true? Did I hear wrong? Don't tell me it is true.." And I felt I was going to fall down down down, and end my life. I am kinda emotional, but I know I am still fighting, and I will until the end. And the table. My table. Was always separated. The table that was always alone while the other tables stick in threes. I was always wondering when Syahirah was going to sit with me that she promised by saying, "I sit with Wani a few days then I sit with you." Until now, I am still waiting. Still waiting. I will be patient. I will hold my anger, fears, and sadness, and I will fight. I will. I know I will. I will continue to wait until all hatred is over. Because I know. One day my day will come. I will just say my prayers to God, he will fulfill my wish. I know He will.
And today, Syahirah ignored me. She seem to walk towards my table but she walked somewhere else. And she kept talking to Ri Choon and they seem so close, and Syahirah just seem to be my enemy. I don't hate her, but she hates me? I am jealous. I admit I am jealous. But I will be patient. Syahirah is still my bosom friend. You know what is bosom friend don't you? It is an idiom that means: True and Close Friend. That's what it means. I am going to believe. I will believe her. I believe her.
Anyway, here's the song I made long ago. Hope you like it:
I walked down, down the valley I search for my destination I can't find it, NO
My memories all gone, all I recall is betrayal, hatred, anger, fear. There may be joy but, NO
It's all erased and I'm all Helpless and I am feeling empty inside It's all gone and I know That no one's here no one I... can't recall anything anymore and it's all erased It's all erased X2
My dark eye rings disappear and my arms are vanishing and so is my body and I hear a sweet voice, NO Loneliness, madness, jealousy, tears "Come here little child", NO
It's all erased and I'm all Helpless and I am feeling empty inside It's all gone and I know That no one's here no one I... can't recall anything anymore and it's all erased...
<"Come child, need no shy" the sweet voice again> All everything disappear And it is all useless I CAN'T CONTROL MYSELF AAAHHH!!!!
My memories all gone, all I recall Loneliness, madness, jealousy, tears "Come child, need no shy, no shy", NO
It's all erased and I'm all Helpless and I am feeling empty inside It's all gone and I know That no one's here no one I... can't recall anything anymore and it's all erased It's all erased X2
well ,, not say brk up ,, only a DUMB crush thou ,,
hahahs ,, not say break ,, well,its okay ,, i know its dumb ,, but i know i won't cry ,, for anymore guys ,, in my life anymore ,, hahahs ,, well ,, hate them it's okay ,, hahahs ,, glad you know that luqhman likes you ,, hahahs ,, but he keep denying?he admitted once ,, hahahs ,, good luck for you too (:
so desu neh ,, gako wa ,, YUPALI e-tho ,, GUMBATTE neh ,, good luck for your eye(:
Yeah, no one wants to read this anyway... Well, don't feel sad. But I was just wondering WHO THREW RUBBISH IN MY ASS BAG??? Like hello, if you were me, what are you going to feel when you go out for your chinese lesson and come back with your bag full of damn rubbish and and all the pockets of the bags have many rubbish, so does your file, the sides of the bag where you put the water bottle, and EVERYWHERE!!! Damn asshole guys, hate all of them. Don't you ever dare to tell them, I know who put it for goodness. I HATE THEM ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!
Well, is that a song over there? It is not bad. I got a song on my own too! Well, later I shall put it. This is a new recipe I want all people to try, here it is:
ingredients:
2 cups graham crackers, crushed into crumbs (digestives are better, imho)
1/4 cup sugar
125g butter/margarine, melted
500g cream cheese, room temperature
1 can sweetened condensed milk
3 eggs, room temperature
4 oz (120g) bittersweet/semisweet chocolate
juice of 1 calamansi or 2 tbsp lemon juice
directions :
1. Preheat oven to 180 deg c. Combine crumbs, sugar and butter/margarine; press firmly on bottom of 9-inch springform pan.
2. In a large bowl, beat cream cheese until smooth.
3. Add condensed milk and beat until smooth. Add eggs, one by one, beating each until fully incorporated. Add in calamansi or lemon juice. Mix well.
4. Divide the batter into two bowls.
5.Melt the chocolate in a bowl and pour 1/2 of the batter into the bowl with the melted chocolate and stir well. Pour chocolate and plain batters into the prepared pan alternately, creating concentric circles and bake bake cheesecake for 50-55 minutes. It might not look firm when done; it will jiggle. The whole cake should jiggle evenly, though the center might be a bit looser. Cool cheesecake at room temperature for at least 1 hour before refrigerating. Refrigerate overnight or at least 4 hours. Store in refrigerator until ready to serve.
Okay, yes, you can always feel free to tell me your problems. I am back to my cousellor job again, just like those old days. Ha ha ha.... So why is it impossible for you and HIM to be together? If you really can't, then forget it. Because it is not worth crying. REALLY! You can cry on something else, because that love may just go away right after he leaves for another school and you still stay in Fuhua and I know you guys may still go out, but one day you may just drop out. It is always like that. That's why I suggest for myself I shouldn't go steady now even if I want to. You may suggest that too, that's your decision not mine. I know it is nice that someone likes you, they say Luqhman likes me - I know that, but I know I shouldn't be steading with anyone, but it will just go on and off all the time. You just may not know what will happen. We are only 13 years old for goodness, well, maybe for you, you are 14, while I am still 13, ne-san demo moshi mo you want to continue this, it is your decision not mine. I am not going to say anything. This is just my advise. Be a good girl, and study hard and get good results and you will get the guy you wants. That's what parents always say, it is true, I know it is.
nobody's going to read this blog anyway.so i am going to post this okay.
yes,i am going to post today about my feelings; as nobody's going to read this blog?
hais.i really wonder,okay.hais. MY FEELINGS;
loving you is hurting me; my heart's shattered all over; my LOVE for you is not compeletly gone yeahs; hais.i wonder why relationship is so complicated luh.):
-a broken heart can be mended but a shattered heart cannot):- i need you now)': the feeling is like i am going to breakdown and cry.BUT!i try not to; you're worth of my love BUT not worth for my tears!because; i feel that..a guy like KAILIN is then worth of my tears and undying love; BUT not you as you didn't love me before.
i hold back my tears, to prove that i am strong; and to PROVE to you,i'll be even stronger than before.: D
hais: D GUY SUCKS!
i love you; but,i need to let you go; cause i know; we're impossible,okay. i am going to wake up for sure!and prove that; I AM A STRONG AND BRAVE GIRL!(: wees~
hahahah(:nononono!he and me won't be a couple okay.i know.deathnote i saw before alrd.-_-in japan i mean.(:hahahha(:wahs.so sweet okay.hahaha.lame.the story is scary.lallala(:i am lazy to blog today.i am trnsfferring nxt year alrd(:
Okay, I am getting angry. Because I got to write this entry over again, because the page suddenly refreshed. DAMN IT! I wrote so long! Okay, let's repeat: I thought you like Sheng Rong. (I don't like him.) Because you were blushing when Sheng rong was going to sit behind you yetersday! Amd you seem so CLOSE to him that you two seem to be an item. HAHAHA!!! Just kidding. You like the Secondary 2 guy, right? And you both already stead, right? I knew it. Because you told me.
Anyway, I rather not stead with anybody. Because I really want to transfer school (don't blame for transferring school) it is because I need to study in a better enviornment so I can do well and get into Japan one day. You may not know. With you. Maybe. WE can go Japan together. And oh yes. If you are really going to Japan, remember to buy me some presents, also with the fruit drops you bought last year! Presents: You can buy a GLAY CD! Or a poster. Anything. You can give me plastic bags from Japan. ANYTHING!!! Just kidding. Buy me what I like. You know what I like? DAMN IT. I WANT TO GO JAPAN!!
Anyway again, PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE accompany me to the movies. Death Note is going to be my FAVOURITE MOVIE OF ALL TIMES!!! And I haven't entered the cinema since last December. It's my favourite manga! And I love Light! AAAAHHH!!!! Okay, here the poster:
KAKOII NE!! Here's the trailer below! Anyway again and again, I must study for History already. I never even revise for any subject since then. My mind is on something else. Who then? Welll... secret...
